inferiority complex thy suffer…

This place felt foreign. And weird . And awkward. Nothing seems right. I left this domain a long time ago and i’m a bit slow to kick up the mood.  Yes, i’m talking about my  blog-lah,( what else do you think i’m talking about?)

My prolonged absence is a casualty of too much assignment and assesment every week. So, yours truly here, is pretty busy. Alas , now only she can squeeeze half an hour of her time , while racking her brain what analogy should she  put in her next essay.My apologies.

I see a lot of progression among my friends since i vanished from the blogging arena( albeit temporarily).Rahim’s got one, najmi ,ryd.Lucky them, they must have a lot of spare time to boot.

Oh, yes, you can liken sunway with the aforesaid opening words too.To summarize whats sunway like? Cool but expensive. Air conds, computer id, swimming pool, tennis court , all the works.Please, as accesible as  Internet can be over here, do not compare me with aijud or anna who updated their blog everyday. True, I have wireless connection practically installed in my own room but  whats the point?. I posess no  hardware. The PC. I dont bloody own one.

Familiar with "birds of a feather , flocks together?". Well, my idea of people with similar feathers of mine here are very rare. So, its tough to find friends around here. Shocking as can be, i ‘m a little introverted here, subdued. Granted, you can be buddies with your classmates, chatting  and idle gossips but once you step out of the class, they gravitate away from you as if i’m exerting human version of  kryptonite .Maybe i’m being ahead of myself. Its been only three weeks. My former schoolmeates had been nothing but helpful. Thank you so much , for letting me bother you every once in while.
To be fair, i’m a lone ranger but they lead a different lifestyle as i am and it  pains me to   say, " Alamak, cannot join u guys la for the movie today, have to finish my homework".These buggers here do not even bother to come to class and had been behind their homework since kindergarten.Say, they will exclaim "Stay up? Whats that? For studies? No way."

( Omigod, someone just kissing beside me!).

See? You want the good samaritan, naive, innocent, hanani become one of this filthy rich lot?
I/m not a part of this culture, i’m not cut out for this urban living of life.

To be fair, sunway college has it shares of good things too. The coupling trend, rampant in  public universities and school,are not that evident here. Everyone here are friends, they sit together regardless of gender and happily chatting away.
Mind you, nothing touchy-feely ever happenned right there. It made me wonder however, why students in public uni and schools go mad crazy to get hitched.My own little theory is the  thing that causes our hormones to go on a rampage is because of this little tyrant called curiosity. Back in school, the chance of verbal contact with the opposite sex is limited, so the very idea to even get a glimpse of whats the " other side" look like can make the adrenaline( or whatever hormones that is involved) goes high.

Therefore, it does make sense to me if a guy are willing to waste  their precious smses just to deliver a one line message( " dah makan?") to  the girl just sitting across him. They get limited supplies of contact thus curiosity rears its ugly head.Here, we have  a better alternative. Plus its free. Its called talking.

Just go and chat, no ones going to scrutinise you like back in school  where talking to a boy in the canteen suggest something scandalous to spectators.Even here, a guy who’s in  a mushy mood and start acting protective of her girl ( walking her to class,accompanying her everywhere) will look like a wimp. Look, i’m not retaliating back at my school for depriving me of social skills when a guy is within my environs,but just to illustrate how logical it can be. Analogy — school-There are scarce supplies, tiny specks of exposure deemed as a luxury. Here, you have oversupply of communication,you get sick of them thus you are capable of being neutral.

Shifting the limelight to me back, i am trying VERY hard to stray away from too much lagha’. Last night was the Pussycatdolls’ concert at Sunway lagoon’ surf beach,  view that can be clearly seen just outside my balcony. It so happenned that i have Physics Test this morning. And as you guess it, i was literally memorising  "Newton First Law of Motion"  amidst the blast of  screaming cheers and the melodies " looosen up my button baby, uhuh~~~".
Can you imagine how VERY hard it was not to resist the temptation of occasionally go out and take a peek . Because i knew,  a peek can extend into one hour. And one hour can extend to the whole concert.

So, thats that. Here in sunway college.

P/s " I’m seriously thinking that my english accent is getting americanised by every the passing day. Yikes. I WANT to be British!

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