inferiority complex thy suffer…

And i mean it literally.

Belongings doesnt seem to like me. Universally, i am acknowledged as the worst forgetter ( is there such a word) in the whole world. If there is such a job forgetting things, i would climb up the corporate ladder and become the CEO in a flash.Add that to my serious ignorance issues ( i had serious discussion about this with a fellow friend) then i am champ definitely in the department.

Maybe thats why belongings have a penchant to dissappear within my care. I have not given them enough love, care and attention.

Recently, ( now not too recent) my handphone broke down. Fine. but i never have the urge to get a new one regardless of all the trouble that i caused to those wh
o wanted to contact me.

then i get a new simcard, which i have to add my friend bought it and gave it to me. Fine. But i dont seem to bother to register the number untill now.

In the end, my handphone is left lying around at home beacuse i considered that communication is not that important when it is.

Last Tuesday, i lost my wallet. yes, the whole package including ID card, student card, ATM card, Touch and Go card , ( this one pisses me off because I JUST RELOAD THEM), library card and license. Three days have passed and i dont feel anything other than feeling bothersome because now i had to carry coins ( which i had saved meticulously) everywhere i go since i had no money and ATM card).Also, i felt a little frustrated because i cannot claim all the deposits after i finished CIMP since my student card and library card were no longer with me.But thats about it, no remorse, or sad or anything of the sort. If i cannot survive, maybe then i broke down but the problematic thing is , i am still alive.

If anything can make me cry, that must be really BIG.Like if i cannot get rice when i always eat rice at home ( i foresee this event in the next coming years).Or i cannot eat because i dont have any money and i feel really, really hungry.

Untill now,i havent called the bank to cancel my card, lodge a police report for my missing ID, go to the JPJ to get a new license,or even informing the college that i lost my student card

See, seriousness of an incident doesnt down on me very well. Some say that they are jeaolus with me because i have no feelings and i will stay comfortably relaxed and calm even if the house crumbles down.But sometimes , we need to care.Less sensitivity  had its own disadvantages, say, i will never know that people are mad at me unless they told me right in the face " You make me mad".Once, i had a big fight with a friend, but the next day i just came up to her and making small talk as if nothing happened. Realistically guys, of course after fighting you must be in no-talking terms for three days but save for my insensitivity, i just dont see the need to prolong something of less importance rather than asking the girl wether she wants to go eat at DM first or pray first.

Someone please try to make me come to my senses that losing a wallet is a serious issue. Same as not having a hostel card for nearly a year now. And also for not having a handphone.

P/s - If there is a moment that i hated time the most, it will be during calculus test.

Title : Why British think 80% of M’sians coming to UK to study law?

UK Immigration Officer: Purpose of visit?

Visitor: I’m here to study law, sir.

Officer: You know, you must have a lot of lawyers in Malaysia .

Visitor: Why do you say that?

Officer: Well, i’ve been here for a good twenty years, and I’d say 80%
of Malaysians I see here say they’re here to read law.

Visitor: Oh, really? That’s really something i never knew. Hard to
believe in fact.

Officer: Just you watch, then. You just stand here until the next
Malaysian comes along, and I’ll bet he’s here to read law.

*Visitor waits for 5 mins, Ah Chong from Malaysia comes to immigration
counter*

Officer: Mr. Ah Chong, purpose of visit?

Ah Chong: Study lorr…

hoho.manglish i like.

Well, of course, i got to eat and drink and sleep too.

One might notice that lately,my pictures all looked like it was cut from an enviromental magazine., i.e, Me in the forest. Me on a tree. Me ascending a hill. Me in tracksuits. Me beside a lake. Me feeding a raccoon.It got so obvious so much so that at one point a good friend aptly remarked;
  " How eco.."

I can imagine people thinking "How did cik farah ni become Jane from Tarzan?" ( minus the sarong)

I have no idea. The Trekking Club had never appealed to me before, but on one fateful day i decided that i felt a little ‘gemok’ and unfit and so there.Other sports were all conquered by guys as always. ( or anak orang kaya girls who think that tudung-clad girl suit a better role as a pengangkat bola ‘out’).

I had a good start too, unlike few unlucky students who unfortunately went to a hard trip on their first time which discourage the faint hearted.My first trip was a magnificent waterfall, with rocks and boulders littering  around and the water freezing that can easily put an aircond at 16 degrees celcius to shame.The whole concept of trekking also felt convenient to me because the need to dress up and prim yourself is cast aside. I get dirty, you get smelly, we are ALL equal in the forest, hahaha.As my friends will testify to this, i scored below average in the grooming department anyway so trekking works to my advantage.

Post-sunway, where everything is convenient and fanciful untill one can be delivered drinking water if fancied a drink,I am aware that my whole body practically cried for me to break a sweat, ( cross country stamina terbang pegi mane ntah, walking up flight of stairs pon result in breathing difficulties) but i am uncomfortable with the idea of doing excercise literally. Say, " I went to the gym twice a week" or " I jog every morning"  or " Yoga helps me keep calm".

Rase macam bagus.Psychological-wise, its too predictible and stereotypical because  you do an activity  knowing whats going to happen which in some ways, i thought, sapping up all the fun. Ever reckoned why people never stick to their excercise regime? Exactly my point.

But if i go trekking,no, no,no..i am not excercising, i am travelling to Johor, Perak and Pahang. I am hanging out without my friends on the road. I am  having fun splashing at the Chilling waterfalls.I am eating out at a great mamak stall.I am on top of the world ( on top of a mountain). I am admiring the sunrise/sunset.

You see,trekking is a shrewd way of getting excercise without putting the mind conciously aware that you’re are excercising. The genius of subtle excercise had won me over apart from the fun-loving company.Besides, my tennis sparring partner had settled and loving it in Melbourne while i think i am the sole girl in the whole CIMP to be enthusisatic enough about basketball.

    In a rather surprising turn of events, i never considered myself much of an enviromentalist.Exposed to flora and fauna as i am, i rather have a nice morning walk rather than joining angry protesters flashing "GREENPEACE" sign in front of a whale hunting vessel. I havent reached to that extent yet or maybe i never wanted to. Trekking was supposed to be a light and stress-free activity and i dont intend to turn it into some serious enviromental activism.A sensible reason why i thought camping is a hassle in the first place, with all the packing , unpacking and organizing not to mention the laundry load to be done.

If you want to light a campfire, by all means do. Just remember to put it out by nightime if you dont want to burned alive.

For now,
Future trekking plans.

1. 21 april-Bukit Tabur, Taman Melawati
2. 28 April-Gunung Irau-Brinchang-Berembun, Cameron Highlands
3. Somewhere in May- Gunung Bujang Melaka, Kampar
4. Somewhere in June-Gunung Tahan, Pahang
5. No tentative date- Gunung Swettenham, Cameron Highlands.

P/S : Sometimes i just wish there is a debate culture in CIMP like in
KYUEM. Apparently so, its inexistent for now.I miss interjecting and
say "P.O.I. sir!"

" minggu ini minggu pengajaran,
  segala penyesalan memanglah padan,
tempat ini menguji iman,
hati gundah mengapa demikian?"

" sambil bersantap teringatkan lagu,
tidak mengapa cuma masalahnya satu,
segala perbuatan lagu bertamu,
khusuk’ terbang kemana tak tahu"

" sifat malas mencengkam diri,
tahu salah; berdiam diri,
perlu bantuan kanan dan kiri,
harus kembali pada Ilahi"

" rezeki banyak,nikmat melimpah,
tapi gerangan semakin lemah,
tak arif cara, pandanglah! lihatlah!
tak senang duduk, berdiri tak betah"

" menggompol azam sehabis kudrat,
pohon istiqamah munculkan diri,
harapan tinggi membaiki yang cacat,
minggu hadapan membawa seri"

P/s : "kehadapan teman yang ingin tahu,
          seraya cuma nak memberitahu,
          diri sengaja berbahasa melayu,
          lama tinggal menggunung rindu"